This is just an observation/ revelation thats developed over the last couple months. It might be specific to your call in life so take what you want and forget what you don't want. The more you provide for yourself, the less Jesus has to. Not that you shouldn't provide for yourself, but if there's more of you, there's less of him. For example, I used to hear stories all the time about how people were given new cars or houses or large sums of money. I never understood why Jesus didn't do this for me. I'll tell you why: I didn't need it. It was when we had nowhere to go and no money to have a home, he provided every resource we needed to not only have a roof over our heads but a beautiful home. A home that's paid off and customized to our needs. Work hard and do your best to obey his commands but also don't be afraid to live radically in his name if that's his call for you.